I can still picture you standing across from me
Arms folded, a cold look in your eyes
How I longed for comfort, kind words and your love
And for you to assure me
Everything was going to be alright
But you didn’t move a muscle
Or uttered a single word
I couldn’t believe what happened
My whole world shattered
I can still picture you leaning on your white desk
When I asked you what you did that night
When I was not home and she came to stay
I read the conversation
It was as if you punched me in the gut
I never thought I’d feel like this
And I never thought that I would stay
But I did and for far too long
My courage just wasn’t there
I can still picture you sitting on that black couch
The tears on your face and in your eyes
When we finally made the decision
That was a long time coming
But we both didn’t dare to say it
Now the hard words were spoken
The truth is finally out
I looked at you and your pain
And only felt relieve
I can still picture all my loved ones at the table
And nothing but peace surrounding me
I was home and right where I belonged
All was good I was okay
You broke my heart and you broke us
And in the process you nearly broke me
But I can bend for a long time
And now I’m finally free